XiaNg'S bLoggggggg...

25 April, 2005

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weNt tO visit mY ah goNG oN saT...
hE'S bEeN iN hospitaL foR 2 weeKs aLreaDi...
goT diAbeTes, eYe iNfeCtioN n fEveR...
wHen i saW hiM.. i waS LyK toTaLLy sHockEd...
tHerE weRe soMe bLooD spOts on hiS sHIrt...
guEss hE sCratcHed hiMseLf tiLL hE bLeD...
coS tHerE quiTe hoT...

aT that poiNt of tiME... i feLt mY heaRtacHe... sO baDLy...
tEarS juZ weLLed uP iN mY eYEs...
my aH gonG... iS feeLinG sO miSerabLe n paiN...
buT i caNNoT do aNythiNg tO heLp hiM...
feeL veRi uSeLeSs... n depreSsEd...
thiS waS a feeLinG i nV reaLLi eXpeRiencEd b4...
coS i diN reaLLi feeL anYthiNG whEn mY yEh yeH paSSeD aWaY...
hE aBandoNed uS... nO feeLinGs foR hiM... AT ALL...
buT juZ sEeiNG mY aH goNG LyiNg tHeRe...
noT reSpoNDinG evEn whEn i shoUTed...
reaLLi waS veRi saD...
oNi saW hiM 2 wEEks aGo... n hE waS quiTe hEaLtHy then...
aLthoUGh goT fEveR... buT sTiLL goT taLk to mi...
coMpLaiN tt tHe maiD yeLL aT hiM n mY pOh pOh...
n pRaiSe mi foR geTTiNg iNto aC...
aLL tHat... sO diFfeRent....
duN tHink hE eVen kNew wE wEre right bEsiDe hiM....
noT tO meNtioN rEmemBeR mi.................

mY da jiE oSo waS veRi uPseT...
n wE boTh cRieD aLL tHe waY hoMe...
sHe toLd mi... sHe haD mORe memoRieS wiF ah goNg...
sHe oSo feeL huRt... bUt wE aCtuaLLy diD ouR beSt alreaDi...
wE aLL weRe gooD kiDs... nV haD tO maKe thEm woRRi...
n mY couSiN n eR jIe oSo geTTinG maRRieD sooN...

i tHinK maYb oNe reAsoN i cRieD waS tt i waS aFraiD...
mY poHpoH n mY aH ma....
sO nOW aLL i caN dO iS tO aCCompaNy thEm moRe oFteN...
n maKe suRe tHey r haPPie... so tHat i aLso wiLL b hapPie....
muSt reaLLi tResuRe ppLe aRd u... LifE iS sO uNprEdicTabLe...
taKe tiMe tO coMmuniCaTe wif tHEm...
aNd teLl them hoW muCh u aCtuaLLy LovE thEm.......

*~LaLa LaNd~*13:55