XiaNg'S bLoggggggg...

27 April, 2005

sad to say...
my ah gong is not doing well...
my aunties n even m pohpoH oso decided tt my ah gong shldn't go for the op to amputate his leg......

i was realli.. upset to hear tt...
silly mi... tot tt an op can save anything... tot it would b the best for him...
but its not true...
slim chance of recovery...
risk fo infection after the op...
n imagine the pain he has to go thru...
maybe its realli a better choice not to go for the op...

the doc said.. he probably got 2 weeks more...
i wish i could say this everidae...
2 weeks more todae... 2 weeks more tml...
the truth is hard to accept...
but... its realli a part n parcel of life...
theres no way we can avoid death....

thru dis... i think i learnt alot more things...
i learnt tt i'm realli veri weak...
onli noe how to cry when it comes to a problem....
crying realli doesn't do anything...
my eyes were veri swollen tt day... to the point i couldn't stop crying...
juz couldn't... n din have the mood to carry on wif my lessons...
but even if i cried my eyes out... nothing would change...
life still goes on...........
its cruel... but its true...

i oso learnt tt... u haf to control ur emotions...
no matter wad...
can't let my ah ma worry bout mi... n also my dad, mom, sisters, daryL n all my friends who care for mi....
i decided... to stay happie... smile... laugh... be crazy... at least for as long as i can continue to hold out...
dun wanna let anyone else worri bout mi... n i dun wanna let my problems upset any of them too...
i'll b fine... i have to.......

*~LaLa LaNd~*21:07