27 April, 2005
sad to say...
my ah gong is not doing well...
my aunties n even m pohpoH oso decided tt my ah gong shldn't go for the op to amputate his leg......
i was realli.. upset to hear tt...
silly mi... tot tt an op can save anything... tot it would b the best for him...
but its not true...
slim chance of recovery...
risk fo infection after the op...
n imagine the pain he has to go thru...
maybe its realli a better choice not to go for the op...
the doc said.. he probably got 2 weeks more...
i wish i could say this everidae...
2 weeks more todae... 2 weeks more tml...
the truth is hard to accept...
but... its realli a part n parcel of life...
theres no way we can avoid death....
thru dis... i think i learnt alot more things...
i learnt tt i'm realli veri weak...
onli noe how to cry when it comes to a problem....
crying realli doesn't do anything...
my eyes were veri swollen tt day... to the point i couldn't stop crying...
juz couldn't... n din have the mood to carry on wif my lessons...
but even if i cried my eyes out... nothing would change...
life still goes on...........
its cruel... but its true...
i oso learnt tt... u haf to control ur emotions...
no matter wad...
can't let my ah ma worry bout mi... n also my dad, mom, sisters, daryL n all my friends who care for mi....
i decided... to stay happie... smile... laugh... be crazy... at least for as long as i can continue to hold out...
dun wanna let anyone else worri bout mi... n i dun wanna let my problems upset any of them too...
i'll b fine... i have to.......
*~LaLa LaNd~*21:07
25 April, 2005
=(
weNt tO visit mY ah goNG oN saT...
hE'S bEeN iN hospitaL foR 2 weeKs aLreaDi...
goT diAbeTes, eYe iNfeCtioN n fEveR...
wHen i saW hiM.. i waS LyK toTaLLy sHockEd...
tHerE weRe soMe bLooD spOts on hiS sHIrt...
guEss hE sCratcHed hiMseLf tiLL hE bLeD...
coS tHerE quiTe hoT...
aT that poiNt of tiME... i feLt mY heaRtacHe... sO baDLy...
tEarS juZ weLLed uP iN mY eYEs...
my aH gonG... iS feeLinG sO miSerabLe n paiN...
buT i caNNoT do aNythiNg tO heLp hiM...
feeL veRi uSeLeSs... n depreSsEd...
thiS waS a feeLinG i nV reaLLi eXpeRiencEd b4...
coS i diN reaLLi feeL anYthiNG whEn mY yEh yeH paSSeD aWaY...
hE aBandoNed uS... nO feeLinGs foR hiM... AT ALL...
buT juZ sEeiNG mY aH goNG LyiNg tHeRe...
noT reSpoNDinG evEn whEn i shoUTed...
reaLLi waS veRi saD...
oNi saW hiM 2 wEEks aGo... n hE waS quiTe hEaLtHy then...
aLthoUGh goT fEveR... buT sTiLL goT taLk to mi...
coMpLaiN tt tHe maiD yeLL aT hiM n mY pOh pOh...
n pRaiSe mi foR geTTiNg iNto aC...
aLL tHat... sO diFfeRent....
duN tHink hE eVen kNew wE wEre right bEsiDe hiM....
noT tO meNtioN rEmemBeR mi.................
mY da jiE oSo waS veRi uPseT...
n wE boTh cRieD aLL tHe waY hoMe...
sHe toLd mi... sHe haD mORe memoRieS wiF ah goNg...
sHe oSo feeL huRt... bUt wE aCtuaLLy diD ouR beSt alreaDi...
wE aLL weRe gooD kiDs... nV haD tO maKe thEm woRRi...
n mY couSiN n eR jIe oSo geTTinG maRRieD sooN...
i tHinK maYb oNe reAsoN i cRieD waS tt i waS aFraiD...
mY poHpoH n mY aH ma....
sO nOW aLL i caN dO iS tO aCCompaNy thEm moRe oFteN...
n maKe suRe tHey r haPPie... so tHat i aLso wiLL b hapPie....
muSt reaLLi tResuRe ppLe aRd u... LifE iS sO uNprEdicTabLe...
taKe tiMe tO coMmuniCaTe wif tHEm...
aNd teLl them hoW muCh u aCtuaLLy LovE thEm.......
*~LaLa LaNd~*13:55
22 April, 2005
feeLin kiNda saD noW LaRz...
juZ rEceiVed aN emaiL fRm mY moMmY...
sHe's iN shAnghai noW...
bEeN fLyiNg fRm tAipEi tO maNiLa tO baNgkoK n sHanghAi foR thE paSt wEEk...
n sHe juZ toLd mi tt sHe'LL b goiN tO jaKarTa oN 3-4tH maY...
daryL oso wuN b fRee oN 4tH... goT caMp...
hUaN oSo goT sYf tiLL 5Th....
=(
mayBe evErioNe eLsE wuN b fRee tHaT daY too.....
*~LaLa LaNd~*18:24
21 April, 2005
haiZ...
bEeN couGhiNg aLoT moRe thEsE fEw daYs...
n diS moRninG goT a biT ruNnY noSe....
pooR miNghui is siCk tOo....
sCh iS sOoo siAn...
haTe pW... waSte mY tiMe...
iF noT i caN gO homE earLieR tO sLp dE LoRz....
rEaLLi hoPe i gEt weLL quiCkLy...
i miSS huAn... ChinG... n eVeRioNe eLsE...
i waNNa gO kBoX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*~LaLa LaNd~*14:48
18 April, 2005
aRgh...
i'M siCk aGaiN.....
=(
sLigHt fEveR...
tHroaT iNfeCtioN...
hEadaChe, soRe throaT, eaR paiN....
waaaaaah......
n noW sTiLL haFtA piA gP eSSaY....
*soBz*
i'Ve bEeN siCk foR coNtinuOusLy 3 wEeKs...
cRaviNG foR fooD...
bA choR mEe...
hoKkieN mEe...
mCdoNaLds nuGgeTs..
taKopoChi...
*dRooL*.....
*~LaLa LaNd~*13:51
15 April, 2005
yuX...
i haTe raiNy daYs...
coLd...
dRencHed...
sHag...
tiReD...
dePreSsEd..............
=(
*~LaLa LaNd~*16:40
hahahaZ...
i fiNaLLy fiNisH rEaDinG da ViNci coDe LeRz!!!
muSt haVe taKen mi moNthS tO dO So...
rEaLisEd tt i haVe pLenTy oF tiME tO ReaD iN aC...
LoTsa bReaKs n oN mY oWn...
gReaT cHancE foR mi tO sTarT ReaDiNG...
iNtiaLLy waNteD tO boRRow soMe cHi booKs...
buT caNNot... aC sTiLL duN haF mY inFo... i'M sTiLL a JJ sTudEnt LeHz...
hahaaa...
aNiwaE... da VinCi coDe iS rEaLLi a gOod ReaD...
woRtH mY tiME...
iT's ReaLLi veRi iNtereStinG... iT's LyK...
sOoo maNy cOinCidEncEs.... u woNDeR iF iTs tRue...
toDaE goT eCons tEsT...
kiNda suCkeD LaRz...
duNNo hoW tO dO tHE dRq...
iN dEep sHiT LoRz...
i iNtiaLLy waN tO wRitE 1 woRd aNs dE...
buT dEn i LooK aRd...*noT cHeaTiNg hoR*
eVErioNE LyK wRitE aLot...
sO haD tO cRap n wRitE ruBBisH...
oSo duNNo waD i waS wRitiNG...
hoPe mY mCq sAveS mi.......
=P
*~LaLa LaNd~*13:40
13 April, 2005
hahhaaZ...
juZ caMe baCk fRm pLayiN pooL wiF uncLe(maKe tt aH peH) deRRicK...
heeheee~
veH LoNg nV pLaY LeRz...
LasT tiMe waS tHe daE b4 i rEporT iN aC...
haiZ...coS eVa sinCe i gO aC, dEn goT no tiMe...
sTupiD paT... baNg seH mi....n giV LaO ya eXcuSe...
aNiwaE... i wOn!!! hahaa.... 9-3!!!
muahhaaaaaa... n i toT i LosT touCh....
buT hoR... pLaY wiF deRRicK daMn siA suAy LoRz...
hE aRh... hahahaaaaaaa
uSe tHe cuE sTicK tO hiT tHe LamP tWicE nVm...
buT hE uSe hiS heaD n baNg tHe LamP LorZ!!!
hahaaaaaa
dEn hE waNna dO sTunT... buT tHe baLL fLy oFf tHe tabLe LaRh!!!
soMemoRe roLL veH faR aWaY...
hahaaa...
maYb juZ noT hiS daE LaRz...
kekekkeee~
vEh farnee tO pLaY wiF aH peH deRRicK de...
coS veH eNterTaiNinG... beTTer thaN waTchiNg cOmedY~
=P
*~LaLa LaNd~*18:18
hahahZ...
fRienDsteR iS a gReaT pLacE maNZ...
aS usuaL... todaE iS anothER sLacK moRninG...
goT 3 peRioD bReaK...
dEn LateR chioNg LessoN aLL thE waY tiLL 1.50...
sOoo juZ noW weNt tO frieNdsteR...
reaD soME ppLe'S teSti...
n i reaLisEd...
aLot oF mY fRenZ aCtuaLLy noE eaCh otHer!!
hahaaa...
roX n yuHui r fRenZ...
gLeNn n paTriciA r fRenZ...
jEaN weRn n sEreNe r frenZ...
maYb goT aLoT otHers whoM i duNno LaRz..
buT iT's kiNda cooL LaRz..
wE'rE aLL acTuaLLy a biiiiG ciRcLe oF fRenZ...
LucKy wE haF fRiEndsteR...
aLLow uS tO keeP iN touCh...
=)
*~LaLa LaNd~*08:41
12 April, 2005
aRghh...
sToniNg iN tHe LibRarY aGaiN...
haTe tuEs tiMetabLe... aLoT oF bReaKS LorZ..
noW goT 4 peRioDs fRee = 2h 4o miNs
haiZ.....
waD a waSte oF mY tiME...
i wiSh i couLd puSh foRwaRd LeSsoNs....
dEn i caN gO hoMe earLy tO sLp....
zzzZzz...
tiReD siAs....
LasT niTe waTcheD dEspeRaTe hoUSewiVes...
sTupiD pLot... buT faRneE LaRz...
tmL eNds aT 1.50...
i sCareD deY dRaG... sO i'M goNna tRy n sNeaK ouT...
puT mY baG ouTsiDe... dEn 'gO toiLeT'...
heehee~
aNiwaE...
juZ reaLiseD tt goT aLoT oF rGps ppLe heRe...
sO faR meT caS.woNg, xiN yuN, bEsS, caSsiE n uRgh... yaNg yaRonG...
hahaaa... sHe waS sUpeR oStraCizeD iN 6e....
LoLz...
buT sTiLL... i'M tRyiNG haRd tO aDapT tO LiFe heRe....
bEeN 3 wEekS... buT sTiLL noT haPPiE............ =(
*~LaLa LaNd~*11:59
11 April, 2005
sTiLL feEL abiT uNweLL...
hMmz...
tt daE i wEigHed mYseLf...
54 kG!!! hahaaaa...
quiTe saTisfiEd... heehee~
tt daE i aTe quiTe aLot aT tHe bbQ...
buT suRprisiNgLy... sTiLL 54 LaRz...
hahaaa..
LosiNg wEigHt...
buT fooD poIsoniNg veRi xiNg kU....
haiZ......
*~LaLa LaNd~*19:49
10 April, 2005
hahaZ... finaLLy fiNisheD mY gP asSignmEnt...
haD tO dO oN auStraLia'S eDn sYsteM...
tiRed LiaoZ...
yTd wEnt tO wEsTmaLL wiF mY mom...
sHe waNna cHangE heR siM caRd...
dEn aT nITe wEnt tO eaSt coAsT paRk foR bbQ~
mY auNt n couSin bDaE...
haD LotSa fuN... chaTtiNg n eAtinG...
aTe marsHmaLLoWs!!! yaYz~
aLL oF uS r gRowing uP faSt mAnz...
mY couSin goNna geT maRrieD iN maY...
n mY eR jiE oSo iN noV...
hahaz...
tiMe paSseS soooOoo faSt............
*~LaLa LaNd~*14:58
08 April, 2005
toDae... a spEciaL day...
iT'S beEn 9 moNthS...
hoWeVer... sOmethiNg uNhaPpiE cRoppeD uP juZ nOW...
weLL... LucKy iT'S rEsoLveD aLreaDi...
=)
i feeL quiTe xiNg fU...
goT sOo maNy ppLe tO caRe foR mi...
thX miNghui... *huGz*
tHx dardaR... *muarKz*
*~LaLa LaNd~*17:52
soMetiMEs i tHinK i'M reaLLy a veRi wEaK peRsoN...
i ReaLiSed... i oNi noE hoW tO cRy whEn i fAcE a pRobLem...
i noE cRyiNg wuN soLvE anY pRobLem...
buT.. i juZ can'T heLp iT...
i sEriousLy wiSh mY tEaR gLanDs aRen'T sO aCtiVe.....
=(
*~LaLa LaNd~*17:47
06 April, 2005
maDe it hoMe.. b4 i bEgaN tO puKe...
aRghh...i tHinK mY sTomaCh too wEaK nOW..
caNnot eVen eaT a LittLe biT mORe...
moRninG aTe haLf a piEce oF bReaD aLreaDi dEn fuLL LeRz...
dEn mY da jiE aSk mi tO fiNisH iT uP...
sO i foRceD anoTheR quArTeR doWn...
dEn wEnt tO pUkE LeRz...
toDaE goT soME iNteRnatioNaL fRenshiP daY coNceRt...
sTupiD LoRz...dRaG sO LoNG...
unTiL 2.10 LeHz...
buT tHe koPi susu diD a ReaLLi niCe aCCapeLLa... *imPreSseD*
dEn piA caB tO cLemenTi...meEt daryL...
haVeN sEen hiM foR a wEeK Le bA...
hE fiNisH hiS eXaMs LeRz...
buT sTiLL goT LotZa sTuFf oN hiS miNd...
haD LunCh wiF daryL, paT, dErriCk n kAiwEi..aTe poRRidGe...
buT juZ noW sTiLL goT puKe ouT abiT LaRz...
hoPe i geT beTTer bY tmL...=S
aNiwaE..
iNTeracTed wiF soME oF mY cLaSsmaTes LeRz...
hahaaaa... tHE guYs r daMn fArneee....
*~LaLa LaNd~*17:32
haiZ... caN'T beLievE iT..
i guEss diS iS tHe fiRst tiMe iN mY LiFe tt i gO sCh eVeN wHen i goT mC ba....soooOOoo aMaziNg...
uSuaLLy i wiLL jUZ coNtinuE sLeepiNg aT hoMe eVeN iF i'm feeLiN beTTeR aLreaDi...
fiRsTLy... mY moM waN mi 2 cuM 2 sCh de...
sEconDLy... i oSo duN waNNa miSs ouT oN mY LesSonS Le LarH...
aLreaDi miSs ouT quiTe aLoT paSt 2 daEs...
coS i haD bEen LeaVinG quiTe eaRLy coS i feLt siCk...
noW iN tHE LibraRy...
juZ sTudiEd n diD soME maThs aLL aLonE foR tHE paSt 2 hRs...
kiNda fReaKy riTe?
caN't iMagiNE a LazY piiG LyK mi sTudyiNG...
buT sEriouSLy, i feeL tHe pRessuRe heRe tO sTudY LaRz...
noT LyK iN jj... whErE i nV eVen sTep iNtO tHE LibRarY b4....
sTudY sTudY sTudY...guEss diS iS waD i'M goNna b doiN...
kinda fReaKEd ouT bY diS iDea LaRz...
duN waNNa b a sTupiD gEeK wiTh NO LIFE!!!
=(
i hoPe i caN haVE moRe tiME...
haVen'T beEn sOciaLisinG muCh wiF aLoT oF FreNz...
miSs thEm LoTz....
*~LaLa LaNd~*10:06
05 April, 2005
siCk aGaiN...sTiLL goT diArheaO LaRz...haiZ...
feLt veRi baD tOdaE...soRRi daDDy...heLd hiM up foR 2 hRs..coS hAd tO piCk mi uP fRm sCh... dEn briNg mi tO tHe doC...
tHe doC saiD moSt pRobabLy iS fOod poiSoninG...coS i aTe 'oRh jiAn' oN suN...waaahZ.....
oNe oF mY faVe fooDs...goT mC tmL...buT i tHinK i wiLL gO iF i caN LaRz...aLreaDi miSS n poN sooo maNy LesSonS...oH.. n iT's qiNgmiNg tOdaE...keEp raiNinG tHesE fEw daYs...tHe sKy iS reaLLi dArK ouT thEre now...yUX.. i haTe raiNy daYs...~raiNy daYs pLs gO aWaY~
*~LaLa LaNd~*14:54
04 April, 2005
aRgh... feeL siCk maNz...
goT diarheoa....
tuMmYacHe whoLe moRnin...
dEn iN tHe eNd mY daD coMe piCk mi uP fRm sCh aRd 11 ba...
mY daD veRi chaM LoRz...
duNno y keEp faLLiN siCk rEcenTLy...
aNiwaE... wEnT tO mY neW cLaSs tOdaE...
oNi goT 8 gaLs n LyK 15 guYs?feLt a LittLe wEirD tHerE LaRz...
coS moSt oF tHem wErE fRm 1sT inTaKe...
n soMemoRe miNe iS tHe oDd coMbi..
oNi goT 3 ppLe iN mY cLass taKin cHi a...
buT tHe cHi a iTseLf goT 6 naNhuaRiaNs LaRz..
hahaa *rELieVed*
maDe frEnz wiF tHe otHer 2 cHi a gaLs iN mY cLass...n dEy heLpeD mi tO tHe siCk baY duRinG tHeiR bReaK..
oH... n mY tiMetabLe suX...
aLot oF LoNg bReaKs...
n eNd sCh aT 4.30 oN moN, tuEs n thuRs...
fRi enD aT 3.10 n wEd eNd aT 1.50... buT wEd iS ccA daY...
aRghh... miSS thOse sLacK daYs iN jj.......
haiZ...i hOpE i caN reaLLi aDapT faSteR...
sTiLL feeL quiTe ouT oF pLacE....=(
*~LaLa LaNd~*20:44
02 April, 2005
waaahZ...juZ cLeaNed uP mY rooM aGaiN...hahaaa....
juZ cLeaNeD uP mY rooM b4 cHi nEw yeaR...n iTs sooo dirtY aGaiN...
soMe sTuPid moSquiTo...LaSt niTe KeeP aTTacKinG mi...nOW goT biTeS aLL ovEr my faCe n haNd...aRgh....sO waNteD tO cLeaR uP tHe ruBBisH...sEe wHetheR caN fiNd tt moSquiTo n gEt mY rEveNge....weLLz.. chaNgeD tHe poSitioN oF mY sTerEo...buT sTiLL aLoT oF sTatiC wHen i LisTen RaDio...oH... n mY moM iS baCk fRm chiNa...hahaaz... boUghT mY faVe piNeappLe buN....yuMmiEz... hahaha... haD beeN DreaMinG bouT iT aLL niTe...=)
haPPiE tt mY rM iS cLeaNed uP buT tiRed LaRz..hahaaa...
*~LaLa LaNd~*16:32
01 April, 2005
reaLLi thAnx tO eVerioNe wHo shOWeD mi coNceRn n sUpporT....
mi quiTe oKaE noW LeRz...
trYinG haRd tO fiT iN...
biGgEsT oBsTacLe bY faR iS tt i haF tO sPeaK eNg aLL tHe tiMe...
aC ppLe dUn sPeaK cHi... aT aLL...
tRyiNg tO ovErcoMe tHe LanGuaGe baRRieR...buT sTiLL LyK tO haNg ouT wiF nH gaNg...hahaaz... miNghui, sHanyiNg, siMiN, eK, cRysTaL, jEwLiaNg, sQuarE, dEriC n fmaThs...wahahaaaa...buT i tHink i'M goNna b aLonE neXt moN... saD riTe? goT tO kNow wHicH cLaSs i'M iN LeRz..1sE4...buT iT's daMn wEirD LoRz... i'M tHe oNi peRsoN wiF diS oDd coMbi...feeL sO eXtra... n aLonE... =(tt'S aNothEr tHinG i'vE tO LeaRn - bEiNg aLonE... iT's noT aLL tHe tiMe tt i caN haF soMeoNe tO aCCompaNy mi LaRz...LyK toDae... sPenT oNe hR bY mYseLf.. waiTing foR the sTupiD guaRd tO LeT uS ouT...mH waS aT LeCtuRe... shaNyiNg pLaY bbaLL... n couLdn'T fiNd anyOne eLse...sO.. juZ saT aT bLeaCheRs n sTonEd...juZ hoPe mY cLaSs iS rEaL niCe...hOpe tHerE aRen'T aNy sTucK uP aSShooLes iN mY cLasS.... =P
*~LaLa LaNd~*15:11
